I was going for a "calm bomb" effect with that post. Failed experiment.
CaliGirl's question is a good one... is she convenient? No, no she's not. There's nothing convenient about this whole deal.
It's just... the reasons why it's not a good idea to date your roommate are all crashing on me at the same time. I knew it was a bad idea, I just had no real sense of what was so bad.
Like this one coworker said "Oh man, dating your roommate? Didn't you learn anything from all those sitcoms?"
I like her a lot. I was a 9.5 on the Are you okay? scale this past Sunday. I am now an underslept 8. The drop has nothing to do with her. I like her a lot and am attached to her and attracted to her and the sex is excellent. And if we didn't already live together I could see us dating and getting to that point where one of us is always at the other's place. But right now, the undefined nature of our relationship is in my fokken face every waking second of my shared-living-space life.
Simple example - this morning, I'm about to head out to work and she's still in bed. I'm thinking - do I just say bye and leave? Do I go in the room and kiss her and shit? Both options, the casual and the relationship-y, feel weird. I went for the kiss. It was weird. We were mere roommates 4 days ago and now I'm suddenly acting like some kind of husband? The fok am I doing?
I don't know what we are and I'm totally forced to confront that fact a dozen times a day. That is the main, maybe only problem.
So yeah, I'd be in the same low-key, introspective mood no matter who the girl was.
I like her a lot. Small mercy.