Anyway I'll be keeping my living arrangement info from now on in the other legendary Steve thread. I really appreciate everyone chiming in. For now as much as it sucks staying where I'm at but based on a few things (poker, areas I want to live in being expensive, blow, meth, alcohol and hookers to name a few) I feel comfortable moving when I'm over $10k post moving expenses, so we'll go from there. That is doable in a week or so with a cheaper place.
As we get farther away from the mucked quads I know to watch myself and not to let that idiot mistake tilt me which I can do, as much as throwing away that amount of money makes me sick. No one hand that I win is going to compare to that amount of money anytime soon. I've won as much as $25k in one night online, but that would've been my biggest live session to date, in all of my years of playing. As a result I'm much less excited to play than I was before, and only time will make that better, though it'll always it'll always be there as a wtf memory. It's not starting out in a session that it hits a guy like me, it's hours in as we're grinding it out. You start to think fuck it, let's take some shots. No. You can't go back in time and change things, it's about how you respond to shitty things that happen in life that matters.
Still in poker or in life to me bad luck is one thing and can suck but fuck ups piss me off far worse, so yeah I've been really pissed off about that shit.
But what else can we do but move on and see what we can do this weekend, while keeping in mind that unlike in the past we have stable income, a decent bankroll, are sober, and can even afford to pursue a decent place and still play the game I love.
I'll be keeping this thread more on track and more discussing spots, poker theory, etc. from here on out.
Thanks again for chiming in.
Run good, crew.
And don't throw away your winners.