a i initiated a few texts. but nothing. he called me on my bday to say happy day, but that was it. so then i texted him on friday and said i was frustrated by not getting to see him. and he responded saying not to worry it would only be a couple more day's. then i texted him today and said "so we're hanging out tomorrow, yes?" and he wrote back saying something came up with work and he has work dinners all week and how's friday. OK, i know this is bullshit b/c he would have had to have known about these dinners all last week. (lots more details if needed on any of these above mentioned things)
so i flipped. i can't do it anymore. constantly coming last. so i texted him all that.
then he wrote back saying he was sorry i was mad, and he was too tired to deal with this tonight.
this is the first time i've ever been honest with him about how i feel.
so long story short, i texted this long thing about how i feel like he doesn't care about not just me, but us, and that makes me feel like shit, and i'm sick of coming last and i know he's a busy man, but he should take some time to care, a little, and at least give me a call, and having not seen him in weeks a phone call would go a long way. and i'm really disappointed because i was so looking forward to seeing him and i miss him. and fine i guess i'll just have to wait and see him on friday, but he could at least have the courtesy to call me and make a slight effort.
so an hour later i haven't heard anything
and i'm angry
so i write "you know what? fuck friday. either you care about me or you don't. you tell me babe, 'cause i'm done coming last"
and all he wrote back was "then i guess its over"
wow. what. an. ass.
life sucks sometimes.