so i have seen Tom 4 times now.
1. drinks - he was sweet, everything i say i'm looking for.
2. dinner at the beach - he's adorable. all american guy. a little sheltered, especially compared to me. i want to see where this goes. the more drinks i get the more interesting he gets. he drops me off at home and
we make out in her car.
3. dinner then drinks at his place. its sweet. everything is just.... sweet. no passion no "oh my fucking god i want you" feeling. but it was okay and it was still that feeling like maybe when we get into the bedroom he will let loose... yeah, not so much. "meh" is how i described it to JL.
4. tonight he came over for dinner. and i am so fucking conflicted. he didnt spend the night - i have a very very very important day at work tomorrow that starts at 8am. anyway. he's sweet but he's so simple. yes that is the perfect word! simple.
if i want to be married in 2 years he is perfect.... but i'd be settling.
i need excitement. he offers me zero.
back to square one.....
in the mean time
Chris
come back to town on tues and i'll be with him tues and wed night before i go on vacation (i leave thursday). im still so in love with him even though i know he's all wrong for me.
i need someone who can give me both worlds.