My thoughts are with you Sov, so hard to lose someone you love. Just stay busy and dont have lots of down time and alone time, the worst thing you can do. I wish so much I had of heeded the advice of friends and people who had been through things like this after I lost my mother, they said stay active and stay in shape. I just sat around and drank and listened to music and thought way too much and withdrew from everybody. Worst thing you can do. The gym and exercise can be a healer.