Complicated question. We don't talk about feelings and deep things, my dad and me.
There is no doubt that I had a lot of promise and potential that I did not live up to. I went to U of Toronto with a full Astrophysics scholarship - I am supposed to be a rocket scientist. He would have loved that.
But I'm not a rocket scientists. I dropped out and bounced around warehouse jobs for 20 years. Now I bet on sports.
There are my addiction issues. I would like to think he is enlightened enough to understand that was not about me being a bad person. I think he gets that (although not as clearly as my mom).
He does not lay any trips on me whatsoever. He is a good guy. I don't know what's in his head. I don't think he's ashamed. Quietly disappointed, probably. But he likes me as the person I am now.
None of the poll choices really fit but if I had to pick one, I'm glad to say that #2 is it.