I never have anything funny or witty to say. I just use this place to put the running commentary that is going on in my head....
I posted a thread about a fast food item...I mean come on.
I saw it. I was going to post some PETA chicken videos. Then I thought that would be a asshole thing to do so I didn't. Earlier today, Mattyrain asked for a fish sandwich with fish in between two slices of fish. She said it was pretty good, and her's wasn't even fried.
I'm weaning myself off Cymbalta right now. I've been on it for about three years. I guess it was for anxiety but I never really would describe it that way. It's a long story that can be summarized by saying that my brain doesn't function correctly. I thought for years that there must be some deep thing that I wasn't processing or some reason why everything was amazing in my life and I could see it and appreciate it in theory but just felt really black. I think now, with working out, not drinking that much, eating well I can be off of it. I hope I can, but I'm not opposed to going back to it if it's not working out. It's irritating to take pills every day, to pay for them, to go to the doctor to get them and a million other things that are annoying about it.
Cymbalta is a rough withdrawl. Not as horrible as the week hiking the PCT that I went without. From 60mg to nothing hiking twenty miles a day was almost insurmountable. I'm doing it right this time, but I'm still struggling a little. My brain is foggy, I feel that paranoid "weed" feeling, very self conscious and randomly crying over nothing. It's not like I'm sitting here in the dark sobbing or anything. It's more like one minute I'll be okay, telling a joke and laughing and then feel really, really darkly sad like someone flipped a switch in my head. It's a little confusing. Because since I'm in my head, how do I know what's the drug getting out of there, and what could possibly be an imbalance and the reason the drug should be in there. Very tricky stuff.
If your trying to kick something like coke, you go to meetings, people tell you you're doing the right thing, there's support. You can trust that even though it sucks, people tell you what to do and you generally know that it's the right thing. They did it, you can too. This? I'm not clear, but at least I'm going to get to a few weeks of taking nothing before I can really clearly decide.
What's really taking up my head space right now are skates. I just found out that I've been skating for the last four months in skates that are three sizes too big. I can post the back and forth emails between the vendor that sold them to me if anyone is interested. Other girls on the team are having the same problem with their skates, but at the most a size off. Because of our email exchange RMRG has decided to offically not reccomend her as a skate vendor, which made me feel a little vindicated...
but, what kind of a dope skates around for four months in clown shoes and doesn't realize what's going on. I was getting really pissed because I'm not getting promoted and can't hit properly and am still falling way more than I'd like. Well DUH. I'm glad I figured it out and have an order in for proper gear but it just keeps gnawing at me. Partly because of the chemical soup that's percolating in my brain, and half because as Mr. X rightly pointed out, that I don't do enough research. When I decide to do something, I just jump off the cliff. Maybe it's a perfect time to reflect on my ways....or not.
I'll just post the exchange. It's probably not that interesting, so feel free to employ Sr. X's skimming technique.
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Hi Vallie,
I'm writing to let you know that the Rydel Wickeds that I bought from you have turned out to be way too big for my feet. Though I realize that I bear some responsibility for that, I was completely new to skating and I think that you should take more care in helping your customers in sizing their skates. I wear a women's 9 and you put me in a men's 9. I'm now being told that my skate size should be at least a size to a size and a half smaller than your normal shoe size. So, at the very least, you sold me skates two sizes too big for me.
These were an expensive purchase and I'm disappointed that I'm going to have to do it over again. In addition, it's been a frustrating process (to say the least) trying to learn derby in skates that don't fit properly. In talking with other derby girls, I'm not the only one who has had problems like this.
Please let me know what you can do to help rectify my situation.
Thanks,
Cindy
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[email protected]> wrote:
> Sorry to hear they are too big, but I would have never sold you
> skates without you trying them on first unless you told me what size you
> wanted. Leather stretches. Some girls like them tight and some girls like
> them roomy so they can wear extra socks. Every person is different. Did you
> come to me to try them on? I have a lot of customers named Cindy, so not
> sure exactly who you are.
>
> Vallie
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Vallie,
Yes, I came to you to try them on. I understand that there are different preferences, but I was a new, new newbie. You asked how they felt. I said great. They felt great because they were huge. You didn't tell me that the standard is to buy at least a size to a size and a half smaller. You didn't even feel where my toe came in relation to the front of the skate. It's at least an inch away.
I can understanding you saying that girls have preferences but me coming to you and relying on your expertise is different than a vet buying skates.
As I said, I do have some responsibility in this, but I think that you do also. I feel a little bitter that I'm going to have to buy another pair of $400 skates. I would feel much better about it, and your business practices if you agreed to sell me a new pair at cost.
Let me know,
Cindy
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[email protected]> wrote:
> Cindy, you didn't buy those skates for $400. You bought them for $300, so
> you already got a huge discount from me. If you have take care of them you
> can sell them on Craigslist and get almost what you paid.
>
> And I feel everyone's toe, so don't tell me I didn't feel yours. I'm not
> going to sell skates that are too big just to sell a pair of skates.
>
> I'll like to work with you, so let me know when you want to come try on new
> skates.
> Vallie
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Vallie,
Sorry, my mistake I meant $300 not $400.
If you felt my toe, than I'm really curious as to why you would have sold me these skates. There's literally about an inch of space between my toe and the end of the skate.
There are two other girls in my RMRG newbie class that purchased skates from you that are also having to repurchase skate because of this problem.
Cindy
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*no response from her*