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And I am not hating on any other place.
What you guys are is so fucking wholesome and fucking cool it needs to be acknowledged. It is beyond comprehension almost for the internetzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
And I am possibly the finest example of how something like this place can affect some so deeply (teh I know going in fischayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy)
Here's where we started - me being thrown out of m ex fiancee's house for not showing up to rake up dead grass (with all due respect we are amicable now). Here's where we are now and I am nto saying finishing, because I am nowhere even close to fucking done. Me having fucked at least 100 times in the past fiscal quarter. Oral, anal, all of it I just needed to fuck, and fuck a lot. You guys helped me accomplish that BUT you still had very good advice about VD and pregnancies and I made neither of those happen. I am past the needing to get laid phase, I feel like I just graduated college yet my job continues to be very good. I want to make 6 figures this year and I do NOT give a shit what I have to do to do it. That simple.
Evolution let me tell you abotu FUCKING evolution. Holy shit. I came to you on death's door, or so I thought. In that house, with them, all very cool and very sincere and nice people I wanted to die. I really did. I have put a roof over my head since I was 18 and I did not move in there out of choice it was a requirement for me and Ookie for the house we were supposed to build, long story, true though. They know it. They will live knowing it as will I. The cool part is they slowly admit their fuck up bit by bit as do I - it was never right but I should have been better to them.
My pride just had me too fucked up to see anything else.
So my POINT is I love you. I do. I am stuck in this little town which as I disclosed is growing on me. I was very defensive because I felt like Ookie was an enemy and she knows all the leaders of this place. But I have to find out they do not hate me. Most of them actually like me a lot and want me to still be with her. Honestly here it what happens when I see any of them. I play it cool, I am as nice as I can be then I go inside and I cry my fucking eyes out. If it is during working hours I get back to work. If it is not I drink my ass off. It is fucking tough out here! I mean it is fucking tough! N oon eis mean to me. They are all nice and cool. If anything I tried to pick fights with them in the bar when I stared the famous construction guy in the eye until he couldn't look away, when I made the minimart lady kick me out while I spoke profanity to her. It;s like they know me before I speak; and ya know what - they just might.
Sincerity is a bitter fucking pill.
The blonde? Let's FUCKING talk about it. What the FUCK was that? Why? I dated her for a total of 3 years. I was in an 8 year relationship after her but I always wanted her.
getting another shot we will get through this Gamelive I owe you this.
Ok so back. I coume out of this engagement and my best friend is like "What about xxxx xxxxxxxx"? I am like what? I offered her a FB request and she didn't respond.
Accepts, then comes talking all this crazy stuff. "You were always the one, it was before either of us was even conceived, I always loved you" I'm like wtf? WTF? Ok go with it. That go with it thing can get you places, right. I mean Christ. I took her to the best hotels in that town. Best food. The lay was UNBELIEVABLE. I mean Tris was great don't get me wrong btu this girl just knoew how to make me come out of my fucking skin. Best BJ's ever, best in every position - reverse doggy, doggy, all of it...........................................................................................................................................
FEHK. about a month later her douchebag ex bf whom is primarily responsible for a beautiful woman in that town killing herself (as was she for fucking him while he was still with her) contacts her Mom. She says "I mistakenly dialed his # and he was kind of cool) I go through it and say listen I am trying to take all of you to a better place in life but he needs to not exist.
Was the beginning of the end of the end there. Long story short she stole over $1k of things from me and the reasons she has for it I do not care about. They are lost and are scum and all belong in one small dumpster squeezed into eachother so that they can all appreciate eachothers' scent. I took some very decent shots and I am glad I did. My boys got my back in that town. They call them all "trash" whenever they bother to show their pathetic faces.
Embarrassed about your past? I get it. We can make that work. Want more from life? Hey, let's talk. Want love? hey, so do I, what's up? USE IT AS JUSTIFICATION TO STEAL FROM ME AND MY FAMILY? GOOD FUCKING LUCK. End of story there she lives in humiliation as do all of them and if they think relocating will help...
Ok now Trista. Cool girl. The friend thing was a crazy start. What a bomb! I passed w flying colors. Just owned it. Had everyone taking shots and watching porn by the end of the night. Ok I made the shots happen, them the porn.
We fucked, we fucked and we fucked more. Then more. And then some more. Her ass, wow. I had never had a woman's ass before. Or a man's (except for Bateman's). I feel strangely satisfied. Not in a bucket list kind of way. But I am deeply hurt because there is something about her I know could work....nurse who could help a bipolar disorder (am I just too much)....I felt like she really helped me through the last 2 but now I feel like a bandaid has been ripped off of a scab and the beaded blood over the scap lifted to an old, open wound that is my soul and I feel like I am bleeding everywhere; took discipline to save it for a weekend...............................That ass was so much fun and so inspirational. I miss her I really do but I never would accept someone elses kids. My Mother would cry herslef to sleep over that. and I would rather
than that:
So here I am.
I guess a getting older guy who has been through some shit. And I do appreciate my existance. I am not like the great people who surround me. Sometimes I want to be; they all look so happy. But I knew I was different from day one. It was jus always that way and it always will be.
My original point was that I love this place and all of you. Everyone. You guys are so far beyond in every way; yes I do like across the street very much. Buy i LOVE you. I love you. This will be tough on me, ya know. The bandaid is officially off. but it has to be. I tried to deny it. That just does not work. Was a lot of fun though and learned a lot about what I am truly capable of. Holy Christ I can raise Heck can't I? WOWO.
Not a cry in anyway just owed sincerity to such a beautiful place and I love you and I have to really, really.............be good.
What you guys are is so fucking wholesome and fucking cool it needs to be acknowledged. It is beyond comprehension almost for the internetzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
And I am possibly the finest example of how something like this place can affect some so deeply (teh I know going in fischayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy)
Here's where we started - me being thrown out of m ex fiancee's house for not showing up to rake up dead grass (with all due respect we are amicable now). Here's where we are now and I am nto saying finishing, because I am nowhere even close to fucking done. Me having fucked at least 100 times in the past fiscal quarter. Oral, anal, all of it I just needed to fuck, and fuck a lot. You guys helped me accomplish that BUT you still had very good advice about VD and pregnancies and I made neither of those happen. I am past the needing to get laid phase, I feel like I just graduated college yet my job continues to be very good. I want to make 6 figures this year and I do NOT give a shit what I have to do to do it. That simple.
Evolution let me tell you abotu FUCKING evolution. Holy shit. I came to you on death's door, or so I thought. In that house, with them, all very cool and very sincere and nice people I wanted to die. I really did. I have put a roof over my head since I was 18 and I did not move in there out of choice it was a requirement for me and Ookie for the house we were supposed to build, long story, true though. They know it. They will live knowing it as will I. The cool part is they slowly admit their fuck up bit by bit as do I - it was never right but I should have been better to them.
My pride just had me too fucked up to see anything else.
So my POINT is I love you. I do. I am stuck in this little town which as I disclosed is growing on me. I was very defensive because I felt like Ookie was an enemy and she knows all the leaders of this place. But I have to find out they do not hate me. Most of them actually like me a lot and want me to still be with her. Honestly here it what happens when I see any of them. I play it cool, I am as nice as I can be then I go inside and I cry my fucking eyes out. If it is during working hours I get back to work. If it is not I drink my ass off. It is fucking tough out here! I mean it is fucking tough! N oon eis mean to me. They are all nice and cool. If anything I tried to pick fights with them in the bar when I stared the famous construction guy in the eye until he couldn't look away, when I made the minimart lady kick me out while I spoke profanity to her. It;s like they know me before I speak; and ya know what - they just might.
Sincerity is a bitter fucking pill.
The blonde? Let's FUCKING talk about it. What the FUCK was that? Why? I dated her for a total of 3 years. I was in an 8 year relationship after her but I always wanted her.
getting another shot we will get through this Gamelive I owe you this.Ok so back. I coume out of this engagement and my best friend is like "What about xxxx xxxxxxxx"? I am like what? I offered her a FB request and she didn't respond.
Accepts, then comes talking all this crazy stuff. "You were always the one, it was before either of us was even conceived, I always loved you" I'm like wtf? WTF? Ok go with it. That go with it thing can get you places, right. I mean Christ. I took her to the best hotels in that town. Best food. The lay was UNBELIEVABLE. I mean Tris was great don't get me wrong btu this girl just knoew how to make me come out of my fucking skin. Best BJ's ever, best in every position - reverse doggy, doggy, all of it...........................................................................................................................................
FEHK. about a month later her douchebag ex bf whom is primarily responsible for a beautiful woman in that town killing herself (as was she for fucking him while he was still with her) contacts her Mom. She says "I mistakenly dialed his # and he was kind of cool) I go through it and say listen I am trying to take all of you to a better place in life but he needs to not exist.
Was the beginning of the end of the end there. Long story short she stole over $1k of things from me and the reasons she has for it I do not care about. They are lost and are scum and all belong in one small dumpster squeezed into eachother so that they can all appreciate eachothers' scent. I took some very decent shots and I am glad I did. My boys got my back in that town. They call them all "trash" whenever they bother to show their pathetic faces.
Embarrassed about your past? I get it. We can make that work. Want more from life? Hey, let's talk. Want love? hey, so do I, what's up? USE IT AS JUSTIFICATION TO STEAL FROM ME AND MY FAMILY? GOOD FUCKING LUCK. End of story there she lives in humiliation as do all of them and if they think relocating will help...
Ok now Trista. Cool girl. The friend thing was a crazy start. What a bomb! I passed w flying colors. Just owned it. Had everyone taking shots and watching porn by the end of the night. Ok I made the shots happen, them the porn.
We fucked, we fucked and we fucked more. Then more. And then some more. Her ass, wow. I had never had a woman's ass before. Or a man's (except for Bateman's). I feel strangely satisfied. Not in a bucket list kind of way. But I am deeply hurt because there is something about her I know could work....nurse who could help a bipolar disorder (am I just too much)....I felt like she really helped me through the last 2 but now I feel like a bandaid has been ripped off of a scab and the beaded blood over the scap lifted to an old, open wound that is my soul and I feel like I am bleeding everywhere; took discipline to save it for a weekend...............................That ass was so much fun and so inspirational. I miss her I really do but I never would accept someone elses kids. My Mother would cry herslef to sleep over that. and I would rather
than that:So here I am.
I guess a getting older guy who has been through some shit. And I do appreciate my existance. I am not like the great people who surround me. Sometimes I want to be; they all look so happy. But I knew I was different from day one. It was jus always that way and it always will be.
My original point was that I love this place and all of you. Everyone. You guys are so far beyond in every way; yes I do like across the street very much. Buy i LOVE you. I love you. This will be tough on me, ya know. The bandaid is officially off. but it has to be. I tried to deny it. That just does not work. Was a lot of fun though and learned a lot about what I am truly capable of. Holy Christ I can raise Heck can't I? WOWO.
Not a cry in anyway just owed sincerity to such a beautiful place and I love you and I have to really, really.............be good.
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