stevo..went through a fucking nightmarish 6 months or so after my break up with the krazykorean... same shit...depressed, tossed and turned, couldnt stop thinking of shit, played the same thoughts over and over....it fucking sucked and im still not passed it. i suggest a dr. visit for some ambien or something similar...sometimes you just gotta knock yourself out..i would also mention that you are having a really rough time with anxiety and weird thoughts...that should get you some xanax or vailum for a while...
i hit the exercising hard and started eating better and that alone helped me out a bit, even dried out 6 days a week for a while (imma drunk again now though..dont judge me!)...i see a shrink 2x a month still, have been for over 9 months. it aint for everyone and i believe im at a point now where i dont need to see him...there are just some things you cant open up to your friends about...bottom line with that, if you arent happy with your situation, nothing anyone says is going to make you feel better or bring new light to things... if its depression and loss of sleep over a girl you still love, doesnt matter what anyone says, you know that having her is the only thing that will mke you happy again...stevo, women are the fucking rake! ive been back in a deal for around 5 months and i would be lying if i said i didnt think about my ex , still 100 times a day
made myself do other things besides going to the casino for fun. made myself go to other bars and clubs (instead of the normal ones that i was used to that are more for drinking than meeting girls) and even found a few new friends to hang out with (well old friends that i had lost contact with, same shit) actually met the little ninja over valentines weekend while out with some friends at a brand new place that id never step foot in normally. now i love going out a few nights a week to the big downtown clubs and shit. makes me feel young again.
branch out a bit, stop in a few places you would never go. i think you just moved so that should be easy for you. once other things start to build on the mind, those thoughts that keep you up should start to fade a bit and you can get some more sleep. doesnt happen overnight and doesnt happen when you first replace that huge void in your life (gf, wife, etc) definitely change shit up a bit and work the dr. for that ambien and xanax.