Complete Outcast in Family- Seen as Freak/Weirdo
I basically at this point have zero support from anyone other than my therapist who I see once a week for 45 minutes and this site.
My mom is critical, my dad barely ever even calls to ask how I am doing,
They both see me as a problem, and keep distance from me, and are overall not supportive. My sister hates me, my uncle and grandmother are critical, my in-laws are literally the "in-laws from hell"
I have been completely left out of EVERYTHING, I am the odd man out, everyone in my family all love each other and get together all the time, they see me as some freak/loser.
My mother I even saw in an E-mail told my sister I am "delusional and paranoid" (total B.S.) This was after I e-mailed my sister telling her I'm frustrated that she never wants contact with me. My sister texted me 3 or 4 times in the last 3 years. So she turns the whole thing around, turns the tables on me and E-mails my mom, "I spent a lot of time with him, I don't know what he is talking about..." She only saw me out of obligation and I plan everything we ever do, she never initiates it. I see her 2 or 3 times a year, even when she was living in my area!!!!!
So my mom, instead of E-mailing her back, "Well maybe he has a point" to diffuse things and remain neutral, tells her I am "very paranoid and delusional." This not only makes me out to be unstable but she doesn't acknowledge to my sister what I was saying, and I had a valid point. She also basically is telling my sister, in essence, "he is a nutcase so don't take anything he says seriously"
Don't ask how I found these E-mails, they were unprotected on their computer while I was doing laundry at their place a few months ago and I was killing time. I know spying like this is wrong, but when no one tells me even the slightest details about what goes on in the family, I could freaking care less. It is extenuating circumstances; if my sister got pregnant, for example, I doubt anyone would tell me... NO ONE TELLS ME ANYTHING!!!!
Anyway sorry I went on so long, I am just venting I guess __________________
Say what you want to say and be what you want to be, cause there is gonna be consequences anyway.
